Balance

I’ve noticed from these last few weeks I’m slowly starting to find a balance in my life. Being at bible study for the first time today made me realize what I’ve been missing my whole life. The simple thing that I didn’t really think of before that was missing in life was a personal relationship with God. From this realization I’ve decided to prioritize my life in this order starting today; God, myself, family, friends, and misc. relationships. I never really had a lot of guidance growing up due to my parents hardly being around due to jobs and or health problems. Growing up I didn’t have a lot of people personally to look up to and learn from. Based on what I’ve been discussing with my therapist as well as reflecting on how my life has been, I’ve came to the conclusion that the accumulation of all those things caused me to become the socially anxious and depressed adult that I am today. I didn’t really have a person I can really learn from so I pretty much kept to myself. I admit that I’m making slow progress these days but I still have a long way to go. Finding God I believe I will find it easier for me to combat and deal with my anxiety. Just realizing that God has a plan for me and he didn’t want me to suffer for no reason is something I have yet to fully understand, but just knowing that this is the case engulfs my soul in a feeling of relief. With that being said, I will work my hardest in this current life in order to successfully serve God in the afterlife. I will try to rid myself of any excuses that I’ve made in the past and I will work as if God is watching my every move.